I fill my lungs with half my worth
And try to go numb so that I can't hurt
'Cause at my highs I'm at my worst
And I can't fly until I crash first

Everyone's seeing my screaming
Been that since birth
Everyone's seeing this money I'm blowing but nobody's seeing the work
Look dad I'm high like you
For me the pills don't work
I like digging in a bag
I like smoking till it hurts

And if my eyes roll back
Then let the tears come first
Been holding those in too long
Faking it like I'm too strong

And when my eyes roll back
Throw my body in the dam
And them things in my pocket
Will you hide them from my fam
Will you tell the world I loved hard
Can you make them understand
That all the things I was struggling with
Didn't make me less a man

And all of the trauma I'm trying to bury probably make me who I am
Think growing up broken was necessary so I could fix my fam
If part of me died on this death bed holding my daddies hand
Just tell my daughters their father will drown if that means they can swim

I fill my lungs with half my worth
And try to go numb so that I can't hurt
'Cause at my highs I'm at my worst
And I can't fly until I crash first

I know that it takes time
I'm coming to get you

Walking a straight line
I need me a breakthrough

I'm smoking a grape vine
Sippin' a grape juice

Choppin' a white line

It's getting harder to face you

(Oh God)

(Yeah)

Take my hands off the wheel
I'm speeding

I said I hate you when I left I didn't mean it

Open wounds from my nose
Still bleeding

Only you can clean me up I'm still fiending

Cold sweats and these meds
Can't treat it

No sleep all party through the weekend

Kerosene black smoke
I'm breathing

Somebody save me I've been falling off the deep end

All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck (I don't)
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck (I don't)
I couldn't give a fuck (no)
I never gave a fuck (no)
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck

Under pressure I don't got control of my aggression
Under the influence I'm 'bout to make a bad impression

On the dresser it's some ammunition and a weapon
And I've been smoking on this shit since I was adolescent

Three sixes I'm trying to get lucky number seven
I wonder if they got a spot for junkies up in heaven

Leave a mess if they gon find my body in the bedroom

And they can listen to this song if they want my confession

Take my hands off the wheel
I'm speeding

I said I hate you when I left I didn't mean it

Open wounds from my nose
Still bleeding

Only you can clean me up I'm still fiending

Cold sweats and these meds
Can't treat it

No sleep all party through the weekend

Kerosene black smoke
I'm breathing

Somebody save me I've been falling off the deep end

All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck (I don't)
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck (I don't)
I couldn't give a fuck (no)
I never gave a fuck (no)
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck

Go go go go
I'm getting closer to death
Go go go go
I'm getting closer
Go go go go
I'm getting closer to death
Go go go go
I'm getting closer

Sample comments about this video

"Its a little less lonely knowing we're all out here fighting demons in the dark."

"This song felt like the lowest low and the highest high all in one song and I don’t know how you guys pulled this off, but this is layered genius."

"when MGK's voice broke at 1:09, i'm glad he kept that in. the strain and hurt felt was real. damn."

"That beat switch was fucking on point feels like a 2 for 1 song"

"When MGK says “part of me died” and you can hear the pain in his voice when talking about his dad😢❤️‍🩹"

"Mgk did the duo album with Wiz but av is the one he needs a album with. This type of music is where he shines."

"“Cuz at my highs, i’m at my worst. and i can’t fly until i crash first” damn that hit me hard - it’s so real and raw. remember you matter and you will make it through, don’t let anyone stop you. your life is worth saving and worth living 🫶🏼"

"" tell my daughters their daddy will drown as long as they can swim " Wow chills"

"Old head here. 43 years young. My taste of music can go from death metal, to blues, old rap, new rap, oldies, punk and doo wop. I know people give this man a ton of grief, but man he has done alot with his music. Music truly can heal the soul. To those out there suffering, unloved, feeling misunderstood, lonely, forgotten and mistreated... Just know that you mean something to SOMEONE. Keep grinding, keep your head up and most of all know there is still good in this world. I see you."

"I think I speak for everyone that loves these two, when I say, this song ain’t long enough. 🧡💜🧡"