I've abandoned hope,
Looking for something that was real.
I'll try not to think about it,
I don't want to feel.
Cuz it's all just too much to carry.
It's all much too wrong.
I've lived in levity so long.

I'm forever haunted by the choices that I made.
A weight beyond imagining that never seems to fade.
For every scar I've left behind comes back to me in waves.
I run from love, I run away.

Cuz despite it all, I'm fine,
Despite the pain we shared.
I told you stories, told you lies.
I never shoulda dared open the door.
The tears of the past mean nothing anymore.
And you're not supposed to miss me.

To hell with everyone,
Who ever swore they'd help me,
Don't you tell me what I want.
Or what I need, cuz I'm the bigger man.
I'm never looking back,
And you won't see me again.
Cuz you're not supposed to love me.

Family fell apart, made me feel like I was weak.
So I cut them from my life, my feelings buried far beneath.
No, I do not deserve to be forgiven of my sins.
Shut up and leave me in ruins.

Cuz despite it all, I'm fine,
Despite the pain we shared.
I told you stories, told you lies.
I never shoulda dared open the door.
The tears of the past mean nothing anymore.
And you're not supposed to miss me.

To hell with everyone,
Who ever swore they'd help me,
Don't you tell me what I want.
Or what I need, cuz I'm the bigger man.
I'm never looking back,
And you won't see me again.
Cuz you're not supposed to love me.

You're making this so hard.
Won't let me disappear.
Somehow you see me in the dark.
Too long I lived in fear, now it's too late.
No I don't want to go,
But I chose my own fate,
I hate you, but you'll still miss me.

So thank you everyone,
Whoever tried to help me.
After all that's said and done,
You held me close, and made me understand.
But I'll never come back,
And you won't see me again.
Cuz you're not supposed to love me.
No!
You're not supposed to love me.
No!
You're not supposed to love me.

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"STREAM "Not Supposed To Love Me" NOW ▶ https://cg5.lnk.to/NotSupposedToLoveMe (Also text me “IDLY” at 480-964-4601!)"

"Episode 1: anything can go Episode 2: somebody real Episode 3: cherish you in the dark Episode 5: GOT IT MAID Episode 7/8: lover without a heart Episode 9: not supposed to love me Thank you CG5 for all these BANGERS Edit: HOLY SH-BOINK 18K LIKES🤯🤯🤯"

"Oh this hit SO HARD. Jax just repeating over and over "you're not supposed to love me". And going from saying "to hell with everyone" to thanking everyone for trying to help, even though it's too late, because at least now the lie isn't reality. And wearing the bow at the end??? And all of it being piano??? And not letting ribbit grab the hand and help????? AUGH OH IT HURT SO BAD. cg5 you absolutely knocked this one out of the park holy moly!!!!"

"CG5 UR SUPPOSED TO MAKE ME HAPPY NOT MAKE ME CRY😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 THIS IS PEAK THO"

"I really like the line “cause I’m the bigger man” It shows how he thinks he shouldn’t open up or accept any help cause it’s the role hes supposed to play. I just wanna give Jax a hug 😭"

"When you realize cg5 said this is gonna be his last and final tadc fan song 💔🥀🫡"

"You're not supposed to care. You're not supposed to miss me. You're not supposed to love me. YET SHE STILL DOES, JAX"

"Jax: I only know two songs. Congratulations Jax, now you know another one... 😭💔"

"From my perspective, Jax, Ribit, and Kaufmo are all living together in peace as abstracted creatures."

""You're not supposed to miss me. You're not supposed to love me." -Jax Also can we admit how fanstatic this song is, genuinely his best song by far"